That’s it, I can’t stand it anymore. Just gonna lay in bed, listen to Bottom Dollar and do nothing. Maybe cry a little, but who knows and who cares! That’s cause of you and many other reasons. I can’t stand it anymore. Gonna ignore you now. GOODBYE.
So many people have told me to just stay strong when I’m at my weakest. Well obviously I try do that, but in my opinion, I’m one of the most weakest person I know. I over-react to every little thing. I jump to conclusions. I seem to always think negative. I always end up pushing people away. I break down easily. I always put others in front of me, I never think of myself when it comes to others.
I’m so vulnerable, I can’t even stand up for myself anymore. I used to be able to, but not anymore. Why? Cause when I do, I get into more fights or arguments or maybe worse. Once I actually stopped saying things straight up, things went the way it’s suppose to. No matter how many people tell me to stay strong or how many times I tell myself the same thing, I always seem to break down more. Honestly, I really can never stay strong. I can never speak for myself anymore. I just can’t stay strong.
Yeah, I can tell now, but there’s no blame on anyone one of us.
Don’t expect me to give you any eye contact from now on. I’m going to keep my head down whenever your near or far. No matter what, I’m just going to keep my head down.. for you.
