Hey, umm remember me? I’m the one who loves you more than the next person (excluding your family). Oh you don’t? Oh wait, of course you don’t remember me. You’re way too busy texting and/or talking on the phone with some other girl(s), who I want to smash their heads against the wall.
So, I’m gonna talk to my ex-best friend from year 8. I’m gonna see how she’s been, since I haven’t talked to her for about… over 10 months. I guess, I do miss talking to her. Not only because I’ve lost all of my best friend, it’s only because I miss talking to her, I just miss her. She was my twin back in the days. She had always been there for me. Even though she moved houses to the country (4 hours away from where I live). The last time I saw her, was last year October, at an old friend’s party. Stuff happened that night, that I do not want to mention at all. Because, thinking about it, makes me feel like an idiot. It was so stupid and immature. I just hope things would go back to it was, back in the old days.
I miss being able to talk to someone late at night until one of us falls asleep, and we end up sleeping on the phone, without knowing it. I miss forgetting what we talked about and wondered to myself the next morning ‘what happened?’ I miss arguing who fell asleep first. I miss having those little dnm sessions at night. I miss the whole idea of talking to someone at night. It felt so comforting and it was nice knowing that someone was willing to stay up talking to you. And when one or the other falls asleep, it tells me that neither one of us wants to end the conversation. I guess it’s just a wonderful feeling, and I miss is terribly.
I don’t want to go to work! :( It’s in 2 hours! I don’t want to work, but I need to money, for one stupid fagg0t. My four months anniversary is only a week and a half away. I hope shit works out after the holidays are over! Don’t want anything negative to take over my mind and make me lose concentration on school!
I hate discussing things that I don’t want it to happen.
I can already feel like, everything is disappearing. And that’s the last thing I want for us.
Haven’t been happy? Oh, okay then. I guess, everything has been all a lie.
